A hard decision

When I decided come to Nepal, I wanted to see the Himalayas. Everest, Annapurna and maybe something else. To be a volunteer was just and introduction and one experience. But, after three months I'm still in Kathmandu. Of course, because of my opwn decision. Two weeks ago, due to my problem with Happy home I had to left my plan of go to Rasuwa to be a english teacher. So, when I was thinking on go to Annapurna or Everest, or trying to find another organization that could send me to the Himalaya region from the school I had a new offer. They had offered me the academic chairman, to promote the needed change that will improve the education. It was a great oportunity, but the first idea was that I was unable to do something like that. I don't have the experience and teh knowledge to do it. But at the same time that I was planning the travel I couldn't avoid ideas referred to the school coming to my head. And some days ago was when, just before coment to the principal of the school the ideas when I realized that yes, I can keep travelling, I got enought Nepal, I had learnt a lot, and I got all dthe ideas in my hedad, but stay here to work in them will make the difference, a huge diference. For that reason I had decided to stay longer. Of course it depends of the visa, if I can get it or not, but right now it doesn't seem a problem.

During this time, I had also find something asbout me. During this months, the people used to call me egoist, insensible. Just because I'm travelling for pleasure and getting experiences, being far away from my friends and family. And it's true. But I'm not doing that by its own shake or because I'm insensible. In contrast with most of the people, I just don't care about that ones with I have had some relation. I care about every single human being, and even animals and plants, about life and what it's need to life. And yes, I'm travelling and getting experiences, and now staying longer in Kathmandu to help and in the future be able to help in a better way. I'm not gonna create a perfect world, but as better as my knowledge would be, better my respond and help in the future will be. I now that I'm doing this because od feelings, I'm doing this because I had impossed to myself a onw moral and reasonal universal system. And I'm able to sacrife my feelings and happyness for that. I trust that the future satisfaction and happynes will be bigger. This is my sacrifice.

Meanwhile I will still watchinf the Himalayas from Kathmandu valley. The dry season has finished, now the weather is really hot and all night there are electric storms. Now, it's possible to see the HImalayas from Kathmandu, and even from my house. Usually is quiet complicate take a picture of them. They are 100 km far away. But two days ago, in the morning, there were the perfect conditions. The sun was just for them while Kathmandu, and I with it, were under the clouds. Anyway, the pictures are not the same that the reallity. Hte are huge even in the distance, but at the same time seems that you can touch them with the points of your fingers.